when did your skin
become a prerequisite 
to me 
not falling 
apart?
and when did waking up to your touch
become necessity,
no longer merely just
a passing occurrence in the morning light?

didn’t I spend
eighteen years sleeping alone?

(every night feels alien apart from you)

didn’t I use to fall asleep
without your warm breath in my hair,
your arms around my sides?

now all those sixty-five hundred and seventy two nights
seem like they never happened-

when did you become
the air I breathe?

ka - 2013